Socializing, Writing, and Widows

After reading an article on apologizing online, I decided to edit my apologies for my past mistakes here and here. From the lack of comments I get these past many years, I don’t know if anyone ever reads my blog, especially those I encountered and hurt many years in the past, but I should try to make the apologies proper anyway.

In other news, I’m doing a new pattern where I take a writing and blogging break on public holidays and even socialize a bit, starting this Thanksgiving, with some extended relatives coming around. It was a bit harder than I thought, since I had to find lags in the conversation where to jump in and it’s hard for me to keep socializing for long. I often lost interest and wandered back to my computer. The most I remember is telling my aunt and nephew amusing anecdotes of texting autocorrect fails I’ve seen on that Ellen Clumsy Thumbsby youtube playlist. That certainly went down a hoot, though I dodged the more sexual humor. I did wonder if I socialized enough but Mom said I did just fine and she seemed happy about it.

I didn’t linger during most of the Thanksgiving eating since the sights and smells of the food doesn’t appeal to me and Dad would have bugged me to try the food, even the stuffing again. I gave a loud “no” the second time he asked me about it, which was probably rude of me. I do try stuff but maybe once or twice a weekend, when no one is paying attention to me, so they won’t smugly go “I told you so” if I like it or be annoyed when I (more likely) don’t like it and insist I try it again until I like it. The anxiety about what happens if I try something is a reason I don’t do it every day or might skip some weekends.

( Cut for writing and school babble. Also spoilers for Widows, with warning about mentions of abuse and the murder of a teenager )

That’s all for now. I’m editing this post before during another session of We Will Hold On Forever chapter editing. Until the end of the year, see you!